Day 7

Well,

Rachel was awake before I left for work this morning, so I decided to take advantage of the opportunity to talk to her while no one else was around.

I said to her, that I didn't want to force or rush her to make a decision or anything, but that I had been over analyzing everything to death. I asked her if she thought there was any chance for us at all.

She replies, "I don't think so."

I said, "That's what I figured. Thanks for being honest."

I'm fairly certain she already has a boyfriend. I hope he treats her well, and that they are happy. I just hope that it's a VERY recent development, although my pessimistic and paranoid nature tells me otherwise.

Nonetheless, I have no hard feelings towards her. If she was unhappy with our marriage, then this is the right decision for her, now matter how hard it is for me.

As you can probably tell, I basically spent all day at work thinking about this. I started off my day badly. :-( That's my own self destructive nature.

On a side note, I went to the gym and did too many leg squats. I came home and puked, and I can barely walk.

I also need to pack for this weekend. I'm leaving from work tomorrow and heading to Lexington to visit Aaron & Samara. I hope to stop feeling sorry for myself.