Day 6 Continued...

She called to check on Ariel. Jordan, Rachel, Jason, and one of Jordan's friends (I think?) went to a concert in Raleigh.

I just like hearing her voice. I'm so pathetic. I disgust myself with the fact that I can't stay mad at her. That I can't, not love her. That I keep stepping backwards no matter how hard I try to push myself forward. It's just one of those things, like my relationship with my father, that is going to have to dissolve and fade with time I think. But god is it hard...