Day 3: Continued...

I went and worked out again this morning at the gym. I rode the bike for 30 minutes, and walked on the treadmill for an hour. After the treadmill, my legs felt wobbly and my head was a little spinny, so I decided it was time to leave.

I did a lot of thinking while I was there (go figure), and I kept reflecting back to one thing Rachel said last night that just pierced right through me.

"I don't know if I'm in this marriage for love or convenience."

The more I think about that statement, the more I realize there's nothing I can do to change her mind. I have no choice but to pick up my head and move along.

With that being said, my stomach is a little less irritated today with the realization that there's no use in feeling sorry for myself, feeling regret, or being pissed off. I'm attempting now to eat some cottage cheese. I'm hoping it stays down.

On a side note, all this time has gone by and I kept saying how I lead a boring life and nothing ever changes. I'm not so sure that this was the change I was really looking for, but I'm beginning to accept the fact that it may be for the best.